Danger!!! Brain overloaded

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Hi!!

after super whiny moment...

I was happy watching VSA,  then KH crashed and now it doesn't want to log in, but I did managed to finish this on time :D

 

Hi...

ok so remeber how I said Neurodoc told me he was concerned about my mood and I just joked about it??

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he's right

I'm not happy, at all

and I had no idea...

I noticed yesterday, I had to do the new exercises and there like 5 or 6 where I need help and since parents were already asleep I went to ask my bro, so he asked what he was supposed to do so I explained and the whole thing wouldn't take him more than 2 mins, probably even less

but he said he didn't felt like helping me...

2 minutes, I didn't asked for more than that

so I was like *gee thanks a lot* and went away, so I tried to do it by myself and I couldn't and I tried again and couldn't and yet tried again a kept failing

so I started to cry out of frustration

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I mean it's not like I want to be like this!!!

I'm... I'm doing it despite it hurts because I want to get better!!!

and I do it and it doesn't work and I take medicine and it doesn't work and I've tried other things but nothing works!!!

...I'm so tired

I'm so tired of being in pain all the time...

I don't know what else to do, I really don't

and I've tried to get out my frustation by giving names to the pain... heck I even gave them personalities so I have something/someone? to be mad at

and... and... I try to be cheerful and most of the time I even manage to fool myself  *yay?*

but seems I was just making a volcano of frustration and now it just exploded

I wish this things could go away just by well wishes, I'd have gotten better ages ago ;)

he... I don't even know what's wrong with me

*sigh*

it's like... I'm fighting the air and I lose anyway

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I feel so impotent, frustrated and... and... I don't know, right now I don't feel I can go on

I just don't know how

I know, I know "fight the illness!!! :D"

but how?? I don't know, I have never understood how can you do that

if it was like something you could handle, hit, kick and rip apart... I can do that :D

I'm so fed up I'm sure I can do it

but the thing is inside and I don't even know where, so how do you fight an illness?? DX

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I wonder how Nino does it, I may learn from him :)

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I need a hug

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sorry about this, I just had to get it out

don't worry I already have the MG strip idea, but I think I'll make it between VSA and HNA or earlier I'm not sure yet; but it'll be up soon

See ya
  

Hi!!!

I was gonna make a quick review of the odoroki, but I'm not sure everyone has watched it yet... *it's a big file after all and I don't think everyone got up at 4 like me to watch it... and yes, I'm aware not everyone lives on this side of the World, but it's just to say*

so I'll just say that THE MOM went to sleep after half of it... aaaand when we were watching the uh Matsuswing part she randomly asked

TM: is that a guy?? *points at screen*

me: huh??

*snorts*

eh... no, that's a woman

TM: really?? she looks kinda manly compared to the rest

me: hmm :/

...

... she pointed at Ooshima

XD;;;

*in case you wanna complain it was THE MOM not me, ok?*

oooh and today she was playing with Matsufancat and her cel

TM: look!!! look!!

me: what??

TM: look look, Blake *real name of the Matsufancat* look at Jun!!! heeere's Jun!!!  *she has a pic of Squishy as her wallie... don't know if to think that's cute or sorta oO*

MFC: *sniffs*

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MINE!!!  *tries to catch the cel*

TM: hee hee isn't that cute??

me: yeah XD;;;  *yes, mom that's why he's The Matsufancat*

I've got... 2 fingers monsters!!! XDDD 
 

ok, so Neurodoc visit

visit was scheduled in the morning... which means tons of traffic :/

but then when we arrived there was just a guy and his wife and I was talking about the parasite podcast and how a poor roach gets eaten from the inside...

I think she got grossed out XDD;;;

anyway, when it was my turn there were 2 residents there too...

so Neurodoc told us that they were there as part of their rotations or something and if it was ok for them to stay... well yeah, I mean what am I supposed to say? *No, I don't want them to learn anything!!! throw them away!!* XD;;;
plus it's not as if I have an embarrassing illness or anything

so I told Neurodoc that I'm actually getting worse and he said that whatever my problem is, it doesn't mean I need a surgery

uh I already knew that *suspicious look*

so he was telling me this cuz either he didn't want those guys to get excited on that possibility or he didn't want me to get excited

which let's face it, I will do

I'm getting convinced I was a guinea pig in my past life or something cuz I usually get excited by the tests I gotta get... oO

blood?? yeah!!! X-rays?? it was fun!!!  MRI?? got a laugh attack, remember??

so fiiine no surgery for me

then he said he was concerned about my mood cuz I was actually getting better before

*blank stare*

my mood?? are you kidding Neourodoc?? we just had CAW!!! rainbows and sparkles everywhere!!! Cap Failboat!!! CAP FAILBOAT!!! :D

there's no possibility of me getting depressed, at least not now oO

me: ah, I'm fine

so either he was in very good mood or he was just amused at my face whenever my inner self reacted, but didn't say a thing  XD;;;

went to get checked *lost 3 kg HOORAY!!! :D*

residents were practically over me watching...

aaand as usual I laughed at the reflexes thing, I don't know why; but the feeling amuses me a lot, which I think they thought was kinda funny

since I don't think they get a lot of patients who laugh while been examined XD;;;

then Neurodoc said I gotta do the exercises of hell pluuuuus the lying down ones

me: <<  >>  ...what??

ok, so I gotta do some new exercises mainly with my arms, so he was near my head guiding me and the guys were standing around my knees watching, but one of them was just watching at my face

me: *thinking obviously*  hey!! hey!!! you guy, you're supposed to be looking at my arm, not my face!!!

aaaarm, see?? see??

it's moving!! it's moving!!! c'mon look at it!!! look!!! look!!!

ARM, NOT FACE!!! ><

...can I kick him??? *puppy eyes*

*sigh*

I'm sorry, but I don't like ppl staring at me ._.

then we returned to Neurodocs office aaaaand... aaaaaand...

he needs another x-rays to see if I really need the blockade or not

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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! DX

I was all excited cuz the pain was gonna stop!!! ;_;

Neurodoc you just crushed all my hopes and dreams

I promise I'm still gonna take the medicines and I will make the exercises of hell, but please!!! I'm tired of being in pain, really!!! D;

I think he saw my disappointment cuz I got permission to wear less hours the collar...

hooray ._.

I know, I know, I should be happy; but it's not really that good when you were hoping to get rid of the pain and you just get a few hours less of something else instead :/

at least he didn't said another month...

so I gotta go and get taken the other x-rays and see if I finally will get the injection *which I was told is REALLY painful* or not

wait, so you WANT a painful injection?? what's wrong with you?? oO

...you have NO idea how horrible is this and I hope you never get to know ><

ok

so right now I'm hoping that this new stuff is gonna get rid magically of the pain or you'll get more whining from me

HOORAY!!! :D

shut up ._.

inuhariko hmm plus he's the one who most likely knows how to destroy a zombie...

ok, in case we get transformed into zombies, can I share his brains with you?? :D

bunny rapper  thanks!!!

See ya!!!

PS why no one told me it's november?? I have NOTHING for Riidaa's month, I still gotta make the MG strip and... and... I have nothing for Riidaa's month D:  
 

and now... another stupid gif story :D

HOORAY!!!

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Hi!!!

Happy Halloween for those who celebrate it :D

this one is for flange5 *as you see I fail at deciding... XDD*

Rainbow zombie has priorities ^^

*locked in 2 days*

See ya!!!

*I love that word, I may even do a t-shirt with it XDD;;;*

Hi!!!

soo quick re-cap of the CAW

turns out that the thing I had to watch was VSA XD;;;

which makes me hate even more the time difference... ._.

sooo we have a new rule concerning guests, therefore besides the uh opponent team we had Shimura :D

over all it was fine *love the new game, even it's not really too uh physical* but for some reason when it finished I was left with this *lack of Arashi* sensation... like they didn't have too much screen time... I don't know, maybe it just the fact that I was really sleepy at that time... *and you can tell I haven't re-watched it yet*

then, we had uh Gurunai and the problem that I have with that show is that the few times I've watched it, it always makes me hungry!!! D:

we had JE team playing against the uh volleyball player guests that were on VSA with Chinen & Yamada  *I fail so much at names that is easier for me to remember where I saw them*

after it we had HnA, with an interesting guest who instead of saying her impression of the guys just assigned them a race of dog... oO but it was cute

aaaaand of course the Araoke!!! which was awesome!!!

you know what? stop reading and go watch it if you haven't or re-watch it, who cares??!!! it's really good!!! :Db

won't say anymore

and theeen we had Ohnofest with him being guest in various morning shows...

speaking of which, is there a rule that says that morning tv has to be boring?? oO

because Shosus, I was getting more and more bored!!! in one they were presenting a wallet and yes it looks good, whatever... I don't really need you to count how many pockets it has, thanks -_-

*sigh*

anyway, there was this Maximum failing time for me or what I call "Nianna, what the hell were you thinking??!!!" moment

:D

so there was this show, *I don't even know the name* and there were this uh doctors?? well that, and they gave some examples of exercises to get a better posture for what I understood

and there was one that had something to do with the part of the back where I have this pain... so naturally since I was in lack of sleep + caffeine + OMGOhnoissocute!! mode I thought it may actually help me

so the exercise was just extending you arm with the hand open, close it and pull it back to you... nothing too complicated, they even compared it with a movement of the A. Ra. Shi dance :D

so I tried it because, c'mon it's pretty simple; what can go wrong??
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right??

...I ended up crying ><

and it's not like I did it for half an hour or something... I just did it 4 times

4 TIMES!!!

if I was already wrapping my head to the idea that I'm gonna get the blockade next week cuz I'm not getting any better despite the fact that I was told that the injection is really painful... at that moment I was ready to beg for it if necessary... DX

yes, it was that bad

so I think I just uh leveled up on my fail -o - meter which makes me get scared of the amount of pain failure is now ahead of me if this is a step up

right now I'm slightly better in comparison, but quite worse than I was before that stupid failure...

and I'm getting the blockade anyway, so no reason for me to tell Neurodoc, right??  I don't want him to lecture me... -_-

unless I tell him that it was cuz my common sense went on vacation without telling me... ><  *that jerk... always does whatever he want*    *shakes fist*

*sigh* ._.

well, today we had MG focusing on Shibata sensei and I had an idea, but it was mean to Shosus and right now I don't want him to punish me even more... so I'm gonna try to think about something else, but if I end up making it; he gets angry and I get hit by a truck; don't worry, I'm just leveling up   *gotta be positive, right?? ;)*

and of course 0 room  which shows the Matsujun pic Ohno talked about!!! :D   *one of my nh spotted it, so kudos to her*  and more engrish!!! :D and how was it?? Miss Dtizy Annoysalot? speaks over it... again -_-

as the crocs Larry would say

*nods*

whew... what else??

oooooh the toothpaste song!!!

get mad and flame all you want, but that's the first thing I thought when I read the name XD;;;

and let's face it, it's better than thinking of deodorant... right?? :D  

*hides*

...not my cup of tea, coffee of other hot drink you prefer; it sounds too uh generic for me

in fact it reminds me of an old song of a group from here *don't ask me which cuz my knowledge about that topic is near to 0*

and why do I compare it to that if I don't listen to that stuff??

cuz my maid normally had the radio on and well, it's impossible not to listen -_-

so there you go... more failure :D

VampyrRep awww, ok XDDD

See ya!!! 

Hi!!

soo yesterday we had Matsujun in a show about uh stuff that has improved some women life or something... he looked like uh Clark Kent or something like that *I watched the review for Superman IV recently, so sorry* XDD;;;

and the Aiba-chan look alike doctor... who yes, sorta resembles Aiba-chan, but his eyes are smaller...   ok, ok, I know it would be super weird if he look like he was his identical twin

and we had Ninocaster :D

today, it was Riida and the uh regulars had to guess who he was based on ppl's like uh descriptions  *sorry I have to wake up early, remember??*

there were also some lebanese ppl and uh the girl how do you say it "read" his coffee *think of the reading the tea leaves on HP*  I just remember she said something about 2 ppl...

I knooow my reviews sorta suck, I blame the hour XDDD;;;

oh and he ate crab

that you remember

hee hee  *hides*

then there was this little segment on RT

and then we had Aiba-chan caster :D

seriously, they should keep this uh corner!!! I love it!!!

oh oh oh and the new cms are so cuuuuuuuuuuuticle!!! though the best is the making of XD;;;

hum

I expected a lot of flailing everywhere this week, but it seems it's even more quiet than usual... :/

maybe everyone is busy watching their dvds...

...I feel so left out D:

soo yet another one of the "I was listening to a podcast"

yaaay!!!!

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well, if I don't get all hyped who will??

...point

so this time I was listening about parasites and for some reason I decided to listen while having lunch...

why?? because I'm getting better at failing that's why

 and you can tell it's not that nice to listen about a cockroach being eating from the inside while having meatballs, you know??

...and you have to say it's not nice??

shhh

so whatever, another uh let's say story was about the toxoplasmosis in cats and all that... and I already knew what that thing does to rats bla bla bla... but, the uh woman who was part of the story asked if this thing may have something to do with her love for cats

chan chan chaaaaaan

sooo I was thinking if this thing can actually change the behavior of rats in order to make them feel attracted to cat smell and thus get inside the cat...

could JE have a... a... rainbow parasite??? and it makes us go nuts about the Stormy guys??? huh huuuuh??? oO

I think I may be into something... *wonders* <<  >>

btw I already named mine, he'll be known as Mr. Toxo Failure III :D  *just added "The Third" cuz it sounds nice*

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what?? I'm bored all alone here!!! DX

so tweeps, if I start to mention him out of nowhere now you know why *winks*

anyway, I have to get up at 4 to watch... I don't even know what I'm supposed to watch I just know I have to be up at that hour XDD;;

thus is the power of The Toxo!!!! :D

*massive facepalm*

btw eye is better, now I have a bruise on my elbow... and I don't even know why D:

nope, part of being a Shosus follower I believe... I could have chosen anyone else, but noooooo I had to follow the failing one XDDD *gets bricked*

eyl  yes... everyone would XDD;;;  thanks!!!

Agent K. I do too!!! but if you compare... I think Koharu-chan already surpassed Shosus   *hides*

Choshi because we all fans are united!!! XD;;;

g3rl_23 because it wouldn't be as fun if he wasn't that confident of his skill *winks*

ebonyazure hey long time no see!!! :D   I love his Totoro drawing so much... the panda/cow too XDD

VampyrRep it's always amazing to see how much can we support him XD;;;

See ya!!! 
 

Hi!!

so today was Sho-chan telling why he wanted to get involved in news casting or something like that *sorry but that was too early and my brain can't process thing properly at that hour*

then we had Matsucaster :D a re-cap of some past odoroki and uh... oh yeah DnA *he one when they went to the zoo* but no Ni no Arashi!!! DX that's the best part!!!

not much besides that... I think Shosus is finally trying to kill me or something cuz now not only I have the problem with Mr. Hand pain and Da neck, also I've got the flu aaaaand today I was picking up the keys when one of the puppy girls was on Aiba mode cuz she wanted to go out and hit me in the eye with her head...

now my eye feels weird and keeps getting teary, hope it's just that and I don't need to wear a patch or something D:  how appropriate!!! just around Halloween!!! and with the collar I won't need a costume anymore!!! :D

*sigh*

oh yeah

we know Shosus, we know *pats head*

*as usual, locked in 2 days*

now I have to see if I get something for Riida or I just focus on MG

 
See ya!!!

*tried to find a pic of the Kriptonite Prime Minister but no luck :(*